10.27.2015 - 88 of 365
1 mile run - Lake Serene
68 degrees 97% humidity - Light Rain
Another morning run in the books, but not until I got to lay in my bed this morning with this beauty. I've been battling a little depression these past few days. I'm not even sure why, but sometimes I slip into it for no reason and can't seem to get out. This week I have really been trying to find something each day that I can be happy about. Today it's Ruby and Jenny. Even when my mind is in a fog those two are what make me happy. I just wish that when I am like this, I could show them. It's so hard to want to do anything besides stay in bed and sleep. I've taught depression all of my life and I have no idea why. I know that I have a great life, beautiful family, wonderful friends and a great job. I have no reason to be depressed. I have no reason to slip into depression. Yet for some reason it creeps into my mind and I get locked into a haze that is difficult to escape. I have read that my celiac can cause this. I often wonder if this is part of my issue. Who knows, I'll keep fighting it until it passes. Until then I will keep looking at my two girls for my happy place.
UGH, I know these weeks, I am thankful to have someone in the family who knows this feeling. We check in, we fade out, we look outside ourselves and wonder how we spiral back down into the dark when we are surrounded by such light. Remember them just as you do and that is what gets you back up!
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